secretseveryoneknows

2010-07-28T20:11:00.000-07:00

So depressed and angsty right now.
Kinda missed blogspot.
tumblr was gettin' too commercial.
falling sick again. been fallin sick at least once a month.fml :/
can't wait for ibp to end. furreal.
can't wait to work my ass off and earn $$$
can't wait to feel like myself again.
can't wait to feel happy again.

Feel worthless and unappreciated most of the time. Why?
Need my life to be more exciting and less bleak.
It's times like this that i want to foam and sloth and bleak in one corner.
And watch emo movies so i can cry for hours and hours for god knows what reason.

I have totally no idea what i'm going to do with my life after i graduate:(
Nothing looks very promising:(

Why am i always sad and depressed all the time????!!!

I miss my old self alot! The happy-go-lucky-me!

I'm sorry secrets! But this tumblr thingy...

2009-09-13T05:04:00.000-07:00

I somehow don't have much to say about life.
About my life.
Maybe it's because I don't have one.
*laughs at self*
They always say, "A picture paints a thousand words"
So i guess that's why this tumblr thingy is pretty addictive.

I will come back to you soon.
promise:)
When i find the words to fit the story

love

it's conformaty guys....honest!

2009-08-29T03:32:00.001-07:00

okay! firstly, look above! This is my main reason for setting up a TUMBLR account. they are all gone. So basically there's no one to chat online with about school or random cock shit.
And living on Facebook for the next 6 weeks will burn out eventually. And this Tumblr thingy is really addictive, you're right Nat,Justine and Dornie Darko:)

This is the evidence. I couldn't come up with a better link name. It was so spontaneous setting the account up. HONEST. So this was the best i cam up with...
"thegermz.tumblr.com"
pathetic i know

I shall be a HOBO-LOOK-A-LIKE for the rest of my life.
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm?
NOT!
But wearing the beanie made me feel cool.hurhurhur:)

I HAVE NO VOICE as of this morning! What a way to start the holidays???!!

donnie darko:)

2009-08-24T06:48:00.000-07:00

donnie darko, you always seem to impress me:)
you're my most eccentric friend alive.
i shall eye rape you forever...

happy post today.
i want to snack.
i want to snack on my PR notes.
yummy:)

"I shall award myself a golden plaque which reads: QUEEN OF PROCRASTINATION"

cigeratte serenity

2009-08-22T07:20:00.000-07:00

I have the urge to buy my own pack of cigarettes again.
No really.
I might be a failure.
And that's a failure at quitting smoking.
But i'm just almost social.
Inhaling it makes everything surreal.
I like.
I just really want to go back to my smoking days.
No really.

Maybe this is how Nat feels everytime she picks up a stick? *fancy that*
Once you start you ain't never going to stop.
I want to feel intoxicated again.

I have no life.
currently.

I miss talking.
I miss hanging out.
I guess this is what happens when people get into a relationships.

Promises are meant to be broken.

This post doesn't make sense.
All filled with mixed emotions.
My split personality.

Then again, smoking is serenity...

The past 2 weeks has been a blast.
Just like before.
Holidays are around the corner.
And i want something good out of it.

Question to self:
"Why do i always fall for the player sort?"

Either way i don't get anything out of it...again!

Next Semester!

2009-07-24T08:22:00.000-07:00

I was planning to write a dam long emo post about how depress i was to find out that the only 3 good friends i have in class right now will officially be in another class next semester.
But i had already blogged in my MENTAL BLOG! and it was too long that i couldn't remember the right words that described how i was feeling.

in simple words.
I NEED TO BE INDEPENDENT!
MORE LIKE I NEED TO HAVE FRIENDS IN CLASS THAT I CAN TALK TO!:(

"Did you actually mean what you said?"
"Because of you i am not going, i am staying here!"

i have my reasons why i don't want to go.
well, i actually contemplated going.
but then life is like that.
some reasons many will never understand.

I now have to pretend that i am happy.
I am always Happy:) It's the only way that can keep my life going.Keep me going strong.
I will get use to it i guess...?

In wing's terms...."GET A GRIP. GET OVER IT"

SCREW GROUP WORK NEXT SEMESTER! SCREW ADVERTISING!!!!!!!!

Just slowly...

2009-07-21T02:49:00.000-07:00

Slowly every step i take will be a new beginning.
Slowly i will lose you my friend.
Slowly you might come to me and make everything fit.
Slowly my life just feels like a joke.
Slowly they will forget me, their friend.
Slowly i feel you won't mean anything to me.
Slowly the pain will just fade away and everything will feel better.
Slowly i will find that special someone.
Slowly i will build that bridge to the one i love.
Slowly reality will just disappear.
Slowly my life will have meaning.
Again.

My mental blog

2009-07-17T06:39:00.000-07:00

FML.

yes! I've contracted conjunctivitis and both my eyes are blood-shot-red!
it's the first time ever i've been absent from school ever since i started poly.
been on MC for 4 days! My right eye is badly swollen and hurts like mad!

I haven't blogged for ages, cos well... i haven't had the time!
last night before i slept. my mind was going wild!
it was like i was blogging in my mind the words flowed out uncontrollably.
if only i could blog in my head. like a mental blog?
i would blog almost everyday.
and my post would actually make sense.
bleak.

school is of course bleak.
it just makes me wonder why i even bothered studying so hard for my Os to get in a bloody course that will eventually kill me after 3 years? considering the fact i have been burning out brain cells and whatever i have left of them and killing myself day by day without proper sleep and without a life!
ok! that's a lie cos technically i do have a life all thanks to my homies.without them i won't survive a day living.
so that's said and done i have died these 4days being at home.without friends.
I can't wait to get back to school, but i'll be wearing my shades for a while more since this sore eyes thingy last for about 2 weeks.

Talking about friends.i will officially have no friends in class next semester. cos my only 3 friends i have in class are all going to bloody Wuhan! i will therefore have no motivation or reason what-so-ever to come to school.the pain of loneliness is already kicking in these past few days.hopefully my class will combine with another class.one that i actually have friends in.people i can actually have a proper conversation with.

It's just well... 3/4 of the people in my semester are highly bleak.and i can't talk to them.
You know there are some people you can talk to and just some people you can't.
So yeah! That's mostly the weird people in my semester. Some i don't even know exist!

Eme wants mentioned that in some way or another how they split the class this semester worked well, cos now we're all friends and we're all close and we're all one gang:)

But now it really sucks! sucks big time!
How to survive? How am i suppose to put on a smile everyday to school without lying to myself that i am...
not happy. not comfortable. not satisfied. not myself:(

I fancy quotes like this...
"Destiny is the bridge we build towards the one we love"

univerSEE by cheena girl

2009-06-23T23:47:00.000-07:00

Joke of today : "univerSEE"

I was innocently doing work in the school library with bunny and em when i foamed to death.
well, okay! i didn't exactly die since i'm posting this.
It was highly bleak.
I swear it's over! you will laugh and foam to death........

There were 3 cheena girls sitting at the table next to us in the library,
and they had a debate on how to spell the word UNIVERSE.
*imagine 3 girls with dam cheena voices talking, adds more effect to the joke.trust me.lols*

Cheena girl #1: Eh how to spell "Universe"? *typing on laptop*

Cheena girl #2: U.N.I.V.E.R.S.E ?

#1: Isn't that univerSEE?

Cheena girl #3 : No la it's correct.

#1 : Sure not? i thought got one "AL" ?

#3 : That is "universAL" la!

*i starred at them in shock and foamed to death*

ohmylord. bless their souls!

WebDesign Again! It's OVER!

2009-06-21T07:58:00.000-07:00

IT'S OVER! -they even wrote a song about it:)
Though this epic song was composed and has been playing on my itunes ever since the first few weeks of school. I seriously think it is relevant right now!

Its Over - Bryan and LingLing

My life is one big mess
My friends they couldn’t care less
So I’m hold up in my room
And I’m feeling really blue
And I got no one to talk to
Oh I say

It’s over, it’s over
I swear it’s over now
No one gives a fuck about me
No one cares, no one knows
It’s bleak

I go to school, the guys think I’m fat
Always the outcast, so I hang with my cat
So I’m eating comfort food
All alone in the loo
And I got no one to talk to
Oh I say

It’s over, it’s over
I swear it’s over now
No one gives a fuck about me
No one cares, no one knows
It’s bleak

An epic pandemic has broken out
There’s swine flu and people are foaming at their mouths
& The world is fast dying and here I am whining
How my life it’s fail

It’s over, it’s over
I swear it’s over now
No one gives a fuck about me
No one cares, no one knows
It’s bleak

"incapable love"

Gin Tonic. It is totaly over...

2009-06-18T06:44:00.000-07:00

"Eme's Post Bday Drinking Party"

WASUUPPP MY NIIGGGAAAZZZ???!!
Tonight is the night man!
YO HO BRO!

This Bday Beast Only said the same thing the whole night,
"One more shot, one more shot...come on man! For me! Drink more drink more!
GIN TONIC! *shoves cup full of ^T#(*@^#* gawdknowswhat alcohol mixture down others' throat* Don't be pussy man! My Birthday guys":)

This fella.
Epic.
ScoreScore.
hhhooohhuuhhhtttwwhooooott.
^#(^#(!^(!)^#)^#)#!#&@($%^*

first to go.
first to throw up.

thanks to this fella.
*likes picture*
gin tonic.
i will never touch or more like refuse to touch.
thinking of it makes me want to throw up.

i shall proudly admit that i was the loser.
the last to down gin tonic.
the very first drink last night.
and may i repeat it was 10pm and withing the hour.
goneness.

"say i'm a bird, say i'm a bird"

Well, we all knew EME was gone.
this is the result.
topless in the diving pool.
followed by the rest jumping onr by one.
security guard threatened to call the police.
so we headed up back to ej's hse where the stoning and eating
and may i repeat SEXUAL talks started.
totally over.
we are horny as cows can get.
not wait.
you guys at the table.
all the innocent ones please sit one side.

"How can you'll traumatize a kid like me?"- Danny

Trying...

2009-06-15T03:18:00.000-07:00

try |trī|
verb ( tries, tried)
1 [ intrans. ] make an attempt or effort to do something

Yes! TRY!
I don't why i even try?
Why i even bother to try so hard?
It just makes everything all worst.
Makes me feel unwhole.

I put on a mask to be happy everyday!
Just to please others.
Cos you know me i hate EMOness.

I did the facabook quiz on how much happiness i have in life.
The result : 110% Happiness??!!!!

Yes! I am happy most of the time.
But only one thing will fulfill my true happiness.

One thing.

You are my entity...

shouldhavewouldhavecouldhave

2009-06-08T01:41:00.001-07:00

need to concentrate.
need to stop thinking about you.
need to get my act together.
need to get my assignments done.
need to kiss wing now (wing)
need to know what i really want.
need to not talk to you for the next few days.
need to think more.
need to reflect.
need to save money.(for bangkok)
need to prepare for the real world.
need to go to zouk. (holidays)
need to drink and party. (holidays)

need to get a life.
need to get a love life.
need you in my life.

Armageddon...2012

2009-06-04T02:40:00.000-07:00

"Armageddon: (in the New Testament) the last battle between good and evil before the Day of Judgment."

Sounds like a plan guys...
What are the odds?:):):)

Happy shalala! It's so nice to be Happy:) Shalala...Everybody should be happy:)...

According to GODKNOWSWHO? the end of the world is 24th December 2012.
Therefore people, we only have about 2.5 years to live!
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!

Me,em and bunny spoke about this during lunch today! What if the world really does end guys??!! NOOOOOO.... I have yet to experience my life yet alone a happy one!
We went through total depression over the conversation.Bunny really gets sensitive about these topics!

Will there really be a judgement day?! Are we really going to die?!

Oh wells, it still doesn't beat how happy i am today:):):)
Thanks YJ for being my part-time EFF BFF in replacement of Mir!
IMISSSYOUMARISSAMIR......come back to me:)

"Conscience is what hurts when everything else feels so good"

Take my hand...Take the lead...

2009-06-02T01:39:00.000-07:00

"Take my hand, take a breath
Pull me close and take one step
Keep your eyes locked on mine,
And let the music be your guide.
Won't you promise me (now won't you promise me, that you'll never forget)
We'll keep dancing (to keep dancing) wherever we go next
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance
Take my hand, I'll take the lead
And every turn will be safe with me
Don't be afraid, afraid to fall
You know I'll catch you through it all..."

Danny asked me yesterday how i feel. what i feel whenever i see youknowwho.
my reply: okay i'll let you know later when i meet him.
but my reply used to just simply be, HE GIVES ME BUTTERFLIES whenever i see him:)
Now, i feel breathless, butterflies in my tummy, heart beating like never before...i feel HAPPY:)

"Omg! We are the only ones left, they're all attached, we need to find people! Don't ever leave me okay?"-oh gosh danny! spasming away!

ry&nigel:)
mir&yj:)
eme&ej:)
vans&kit:)
nat&hers:)
.....who else.....

pause.
okay time for me to spasm as well....

We only have like one and half years to find our fish. *cue: The Fish will turn into a Dragon*
Worst, we only have like about 5 years more to find our soul mate. the person i am going to spend the rest of my life with:( Totally over guys!

"You know there's always this woman in the office who's proud and bitchy and successful and rich but not married? Yes i am going to be that woman! The one who is successful but no life. No love life"-Bunny

Why is everything moving so fast? Why is time flying? Why? Why?
I just want it all to stop or at least pause for awhile.just awhile.i need a man.totally!

"germaine please come back to me"-eff bff

Monday blues and nothing to do...

2009-06-01T00:01:00.000-07:00

I had a wicked ass dam shagged weekend.
It's monday again, and i feel happy being back in school cos i get to see you guys ( the most important people in the world) my friends:)

Friday after school had picnic with my lovelies:)
Saturday was super shagged had only 3.5 hours of sleep the night before and still got my ass down for KC FAMILY DAY! and then headed again to town to watch The Singapore Arts Festival- Arts on the move. I seriously sleep on the steps along orchard road.highly bleak! i couldn't take it, i return home to hear,My Mother: "Oh you have finally decided to return home? You finally found your home?" (okay! my bad i didn't go home for the past 48 hours and considering the fact that earlier in the week i was not home for 3 nights! All thanks to bloody webdesign.was this close to having a breakdown)
Sunday morning got my ass to church for mass. (i need to be holy.i have to be holy) And again out and about to Toa payoh Hub, Orchard & Esplanade to catch SAF and squeezed Little India in to get out eyebrows done:) I am finally satisfied!:) We watched "THE DIAMOND" performance last and got a couple of interviews for the day. We ended up heading to the Esplanade rooftop to get a nice view. We layed there on the hard wooden pathway and watched the dark sky pass by us and there wasn't many stars last night. Though the feeling of just watchign the emptiness of the night pass by and having to not feela anything was serene...

Monday Blues and nothing to do...

I just had a revelation about someone.
could it be true?
can the kitty kat be trusted?
how can you be so close to someone and yet not know this fact?
okay, maybe i discovered it awhile ago? but what am i suppose to say?how am i suppose to respond to it? maybe i should just block it out??!!!
i've heard others talking about it.
the kitty kat is so superficial.the people it hangs around with are also very. i repeat very. superficial.
well, the kitty kat will never understand the true meaning of friendship until it is lost.

"True friendship is like sound health,
The value of it is seldom know until it is lost."

I don't want this to be another mj situation. Please:(
I have faith in you.
Pexp.

I feel happy when i look into your eyes:)
Keep me feeling happy:)

Another 19 year old:)

2009-05-27T20:23:00.000-07:00


HAPPY BIRTHDAY J.L.N
19 all, together we only have one year more to be teens. it is totally over!LOLS:)

Each year your birthday reminds me
That I really want to say
I’m very glad I know you;
I think of you each day.

I hope you enjoy your birthday,
All the pleasures it has in store,
And because I appreciate you,
I hope you have many more!

"We walked along a crowded street,
You took my hand and danced with me,
 And when you left, you kissed my lips,
 You told me you would never, never forget
 These images,we made together..."


love,
germaine:)
28.05.09

We going to get no sleep tonight...

2009-05-23T15:13:00.001-07:00

FUCK!
okay! it is officially the first time i have cursed here!
i have had no sleep for the past 3 nights due to assignments due on after the other!
i am here at changi airport and webdesign is killing me.
my back is killing me.my eyes are killing me!!!!
WE HAVE NO LIFE!
I HAVE HAD NO SLEEP!
I AM AS CRANKY AS DAWG CAN GET!

people humping.people running.people going mad.
it is truly over...

THIS IS THE THE RESULT OF WEBDESIGN PEOPLE! AND ALL THE MOTHER FUCKING ASSIGNMENTS!!!
i need sleep! now!!!!!!!

SAVE ME!

"Wassssuuuppppp Dawgzxxzxzxz"

I like...

2009-05-20T07:39:00.001-07:00

As usual life is bleak!
assignments are coming in like a tidal wave.
no wait! TSUNAMI all......

but i like...

i like the way you move,
i like your coolness,
i like how you make random funny horny jokes,
i like when you like something you do it and good at it,
i like how i don't even know how i like you.

But i know i like you.

alot.

:)

to my ex-MIA bestfriend...

2009-05-14T07:07:00.000-07:00

I saw you today walking from a far,
i wanted to know if it was YOU...
so i walked past, and when i saw that it was you,
the feeling inside of me...
my heart was beating so fast,
like a friend i did not meet in ages...
why do i even bother? why should i even care.

it's been months since we spoke,
why is it so? did we just fall out?
your problems came in the way.
i miss talking to you...

You were my MIA best friend, that's what i called you beside being my bitch.
you come and go...
i don't even know why i still care but i do:)
The weirdest part is i think we are fated to be friends,
cos 10 minutes before i saw you from a distant, i was talking about you,
about our random experiences, about our friendship.

There were so many emotions going through my heart,
anger, frustration, emptiness, love, happiness and excitement when i saw you.
i wanted so badly to walk up to you and ask.
demand an answer on to why....?

you look so grown up now! Like a man! The person i wanted you to be.
so good looking. so attractive. so grown up.
in simple words, you look different:)

i miss you my mia bestfriend. i miss you alot:)
i have miss you and will continue to do so....

k.i.p

You've given me a reason to be HAPPY:)

2009-05-11T19:26:00.000-07:00

Danny...thanks for sharing:)

Mir and i have like officially stolen this post of yours...but it's so deep and i love it...

“The greatest irony of love is loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right & finding out you love someone after that person walks out from your life. Most relationships tend to fail not because of the absence of love (love is always present), but because one was being loved too much & the other was being loved too little. Most often we fall in love with a person only to discover that for them, we are just a pasttime, while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger. Here’s a piece of advice: Let go when you’re hurting too much. Give up when love isn’t enough & move on when things are not like how they were before. There is someone out there who will love you even more and surely then, you will know true love.”

-Anonymous

I have never fallen inlove,

I don't know how love feels like,

Teach me to love someone,

Teach me how to love you,

Cos you give me butterflies,

I feel happy thinking about you...

My answer to what makes me Happy:) Besides being with my friends!

After that night, it's truly over (in the words of eme)

I can now officially say that my alcohol level has gone down! What's wrong with me?

"I'm eating jelly beans in class now" Yummyyyyyy......:)

my life is highly bleak!

2009-05-06T01:38:00.000-07:00

WEB DESIGN is killing me!
i will willingly fail.
ok.
no.
wait.
i don't want to repeat the dam module.
i will seriously go through depression.
i need to club.but i'm on a diet.
a clubbing diet:)

updates on school.well it sucks.due to the fact that we have assignments and i haven't had the mood to blog or more over time??!!

my eff bff's finally happy:)
if she's happy i'm happy!
cos praise the lord she's not emo anymore.

i will hunt you down if you ever ever ever break her heart! you got it? mr.man who's currently sick as a dog!HAHA!

Talking about sick, i'm think i might be the source of swine flu! just kidding. my body feels really warm and i'm rather lethargic all the time but my temperature's NORMAL.freaking??!!
And we have to take out temperature in the morning and afternoon! IT'S AMAZINGGGG....they just have to scan our foreheads! WOW!

Bunny and i have theme crazy songs that we can't sing half the time, cos knowing me, i can't remember lyrics for nuts!

"He who puts butterflies in my tummy <3"
i smile every time i think about him:)

It's fear that causes distractions!

2009-04-25T03:21:00.000-07:00

I SURVIVED!:)

I can now officially announced that i survived the first week of year two!
trying to stay awake in most of my tutorials and lectures is going to be a challenged.
"i became a fan of sleeping in class on FB"
I can't take early morning classes anymore! Everyday i have to wake up at 6am just to get my ass in school on time and 5.30 on Wednesdays! I love Fridays cos it's my ONLY afternoon class and it's the ONLY class i'm in with mir and the others.

IMISSYOUEFF!
i think i have been avoiding the situation.
the one.
that one.
i need to adjust.
accept it.
face reality.
WE ARE NO LONGER CLASSMATES!

worst of all of classes aren't the same:(
i hate it.
i miss having lunch with you and the gang.
i miss singing random songs and laughing at bunnyswan.
i just miss you as a classmate.

It's not just you!
I miss our gang.
our poly musical gang.
The Hair.
The Pimp.
The Wing.
The Chimney.
The Bunny.
The Scholar.
The Germz.
It's been torture, but i'm trying, really trying to adjust.

My new class.....hmmm....
i have seriously no comments.
The power of J.E.EG:)
we are the only ones sitting on the other side of class.
we call ourselves the rejects.
considering the fact that all OF THEM REJECT US!
"we too cool for them"
it's not that i refuse to talk to them.
i think i'm a pretty sociable person.
it's just that i can't talk to them.there's no connection at all.but i must say i tried.it tried to pass of a few smiles and welcoming gestures.i think?!??
The JEEG's a re planning to bake stuff next week and bring to class.
maybe bribery will work? "Hey over there? Want some brownies, cookies? Want me in your group?" hurhur.

The new class is just different. There's no more laughter besides mine laughing at Eme's every move and response to our new tutors.HILARIOUS! i tell you.
and omg! did i mentioned bunny and i have come up with "THE FOAMING AT THE MOUTH ACTION":) and "IT'S OVER" is officially the new catch phrase of the semester.

I discovered toothpicks as a resource to keep my eyes open in class.
I doubt it'll work.I heavily rely on my skills of "Sleeping with my eyes Open".
I might soon be the new master of this skill, not many can do it!
Basically i go into zzzzzz mode as soon as the class starts, then my eyes are opened but my mines not there. I stare blankly at the lecturer, and soon fall asleep. my mind is asleep. nothing goes in, m=nothing comes out. But my eyes remained open.

Cos now i need to focus.I need to have an aim.
I need to have a need.
Just look up! And reach out for...
that something i want.
that someone i need.
that place i want to be.

"foaming at the mouth"
it was the only thing we could do after listening to horrible Emcees at the DanceForFund.
grosses us out! the foamed a couple of times watching the other dances.
thank god FMS won! if not first at least we won something.
ISLAND CREAMERY!:) yummmyy:) was our treat for winning:)

Keep rollin' rollin' rolling...
For those who rolled:)
we cool:)
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahaahha:)
bunny and i have always talked about rolling down NP hill. and we finally did.it was like the officially opening of school for us. we needed to do something wild and out!
after the mass dance competition and after finding out the posts of the ex-co for the new FMS student out reach (no longer FMSA) bunny and i were walking out of the convention centre down the hill. The idea came as a surprise!:) She rolled first:) followed by the rest of us.
IT WAS IN EXPERIENCE!:)
and i would so do it again full forced!:)
it felt as though we were all high and super drunk.
i guess we were high on friends and school:)

I just can't take emo people.
as in emotional people.
why are happy people turning over to the bad side.
It's not fair to the other.
I fear loosing you.
I fear you'll cross over.
Please don't.
i know there are emotions tied to this roller coaster, please be strong.

"I fear death most of all"

"Every hero becomes a bore at last"

when midnight strikes....IT'S OVER!

2009-04-18T00:24:00.000-07:00

"Cos my back hurts,
my shirt's too tight and,
my booty shakes from the left to the right"

Well, technically...my back seriously hurts from sleeping on the cold hard ground for a hour and a half in the morning.
And considering the fact i didn't sleep the whole night just adds to my body's "lethargism". We didn't have a choice, it was the only CLEAN spot of the chalet floor (under the staircase) that mir and i could find because the chalet was filthy!!! IT WAS GROSS!
Think cigarette buds, alcohol, puke and dirty water all over the floor???!! AND that there were 35248474812 people walking in and out of the chalet???!!!
My head hurts from a slight hangover! However i spent most of the time being sober! okay, maybe from 3 am onwards when i decided to get out of the bed where i was trying my best to sleep cos i couldn't think straight. The true fact is I GOT OUT OF THE BED, OUT OF THE ROOM cos it smelt GROSS! seriously! It was disgusting! HONEST!

Last night, i told myself I'd get wasted! Just have fun! Forget about the world! Forget about my worries! Just be high! I accomplished half of my desire! the other half i spent cleaning up people's puke or settling the situation!
I saw this sign in a passing car once, "Beer is cheaper than petrol.Drink.Don't Drive"
ALL HAIL THE ERDINGER BEER BOTTLE layed to rest at the foot of the coconut tree!
that's very much i remember of me doing when i was high.I'M CRAZY!
I can control.I do not loose myself...
So when you drink people! people! please control! okay, maybe that's not quite possible when you can't think straight.

*hums the tune of Circus*
"There's only 3 types of drinkers in this world...
the ones that get emotional,
the ones that get physical,
and there are the ones that just observe"

I can certify myself "The one that observes"
Cos i observe all those getting drunk and wasted.LOLS:)
Sometimes it's hilarious watching others high. I guess it's a FREE show for those watching me roll around the dance floor when i'm high. But the show gets nasty when you see those "actors" not being able to control themselves! And that's when i mean puking and lying in your own puke the whole dam night! EEEEEWWWW!
I am officially traumatized after seeing the state of the bedroom! I had a lot of FREE SHOWs last night!

I therefore certify,"The unofficial official party" officially over!
In the words of em and rui yi, after midnight when we officially started drinking.... "IT'S OVER"
Screw Bombay Sapphire!!!!! Effing sick shit!
I hate GIN.
Highness and hangoverness is officially wearing off.
My tummy hurts from drinking like so many different drinks!

GOODBYE ALCOHOL!

i am fearless!

2009-04-01T00:11:00.000-07:00

I AM FEARLESS!!!

if you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling.
if you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
if you get 11-20, you are normal.
if you get 10 or less, you’re fearless.
people who don’t have any are full of crap.
Tag 10 of your friends and find out whether or not they suffer paranoia.

I fear ...

[ ] black people
[ ] the dark
[x] staying single forever
[ ] being a parent
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[x ] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants
total so far: 2

[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[x] deep water
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk
[ ] the ocean
[x] failure
[ ] success
[x ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[x] rats
[ ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
total so far: 6

[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing hanging bridges
[x] death
[ ] heaven
[ ] being robbed/mugged
[ ] falling
[ ] clowns
[ ] dolls
[ ] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibilities
[ ] doctors
[ ] tornadoes
total so far: 7

[ ] hurricanes
[x ] incurable diseases
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] ghosts
[ ] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[x] being alone
[ ] becoming blind
[ ] becoming deaf
[ ] growing up, old
total so far: 9

[x] creepy noises in the night
[ ]not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] needles
[ ] blood
total: 10

Km8
that night was an awesome night!
sssssshhhhhh......

my bunny swan!
we are together forever!:)
we got our classes last week. it was on Thursday i think?
and of all days when i wasn't at home they had to post up the new timetable.i was honestly as clueless as a dam dog could get till Vans gave me a call, frantically asking me what class i was posted to???!!! BLEAK! "OMG! CLASSES ARE OUT"""
reality check! my homies and i would not longer be in the same class. my EFF BFF too:(
however as luck struck through my veins. *which hardly happens* bunny swan and i got posted to 207 together with emily and emeline and a bunch of random other people, some of whom i never knew existed in Mass Comm. The rest of my homies go a least one kaki to be with however i am still jealous at the fact that mir, danny, ruiyi and yj are like all in the same class! HMPH!
it's okay! we promised each other we'll meet ip regularly for lunch and outside school outings.....
THANK THE LORD! first day of school is LECTURE DAY!!:):) omg omg! what to wear??!! i am running low on clothes! the matter of fact i have been repeating my outfits like !&*#&*%#&*
DONT JUDGE ME!:(
talking about school, FMS FOC is in like 4 days time i'm so excited!
BLACK PEARL all the way!

...INTRODUCING....
"THE FELINES"
Formed By: Meds&Jans

CIRCLE CIRCLE DOT DOT

g: "I'm germaine" *pops her boobs*
j: "I'm Jan rick" *licks finger sizzles ass*
m: "I'm Medinah" *shakes ass like crazy and sicks out tongue*
s: "I'm shaakir" * wanks himself*

we will have regular practices...
the world is going to see us!:)

that night was an awesome night! clubbed till we dropped!
Zouk i s my home! i love it there:)
okay! so we went there pretty early and it was quite empty considering everyone went for Km* and the opening of butter factory.
but by like midnight the crowds came in.
join forces with random NP people. dance till we couldn't dance no more!

by like 4am we ditched phuture to make our way to Km8.
we was rather BLEAK! cos it was like trance music.
i slept on the bench for a while and when i got up. tried my best to groove with trance.
i had the best vodka redbull from the bar there!
dam shhhhiiiioookkkkk!
we crashed at the STRAND HOTEL for the morning.....

homies! we are so having major party at a hotel room. pretty cheap.we all need some something something before school starts.i need to SMOKE.*winks*.everyone gets to bring someone.we're all getting wasted:)

XOXO,
GermzyGermaine

I fell inlove the moment i heard you...

2009-03-24T07:04:00.000-07:00

I fell inlove when i heard you...

She was lost in so many different ways
Out in the darkness with no guide
I know the cost of a losing hand
Never thought the grace of god go high

I found heaven on earth
You were my last, my first
And then here this voice inside

I've been alone
When i'm surrounded by friends
How could the silence be so loud
But i still go home knowing that i've got you
There's us when the lights go down

You are my heaven on earth
You are my hunger, my thirst
I always hear this voice inside

Sometimes love can come and pass you by
While your busy making plans
Suddenly hit you and then you realize
It's out of your hands, baby you got to understand

You are my heaven on earth
You are my last, my first
And then i hear this voice inside

I know...
Okay! since i started work at beach hut i haven't been blogging much!
Due to the fact that i work and go out after that. I've been spending money alot on drinks! I SHOULD STOP! WASTE MONEY!!! i should go shopping! restock my wardrobe for sem 2!
Young dickies on the way! Hopefully NP mass comm have recruited the right type of boys for me! yummy:)
Why is everyone going overseas??
MIR I MISS YOU:)
So working is the only thing that can keep my mind off not having my EFF BFF to hang out with and not having that fool to talk to on the phone. Few days ago my PM on msn was " I am moving on" in a sense of not having to care much about that someone. Why bother right? change of focus. Not just in the love section, just in life generally! Moving on to year 2 of Mass Comm torture! BLEAKNESS i swear! SO that gets to my point where i miraculously passed all my modules! WHOOTS! My T105 homies celebrated our results and a chillable night in town at alley bar! *drinking again* that night mir and i were this close to doing *AHEM AHEM* *winks*
i mean i told myself, at least once in my life i would try and since *Chris had something something something that night, why not? Mir and i waited at the Sex Park while *Chirs got the dough...waited waited...getting late...it was like 1am plus got tired of waiting so we posted the event till you get back mir! anyways, we needed like ample time for our highness to go away. considering mir and i will go freaking WHOOOZZZZZYYYY...

Monday night...
Dinny invited his homies to celebrate his 18th birthdayy at Timbre substation!
The plan: To get Dinny Drunk! CHEERS! (we almost succeeded, he couldn't walk straight after that)
oh ya! to whoever actually reads this! NEVER GO THERE AND DRINK!
they give you pussy drinks! motherfucker of a bartender! i swear i was this close to getting in a fist fight with him!
almost all the drinks we ordered was like shit, dam weak! especially the kamikaze shooters! freaking tasted like lime juice to me!
however, dinny had loads of drinks that night, let's see...
black Russian, one pint beer, long island ice tea, couples of shooters, frozen lime Margarita..etc..
*peektures below*

It dawned on me that I AM VERY LUCKY! WE ARE VERY LUCKY!

Look at this old man! he was sleeping by the road side at bugis, drooling like crap shit on myself! * Marcus i still think you're dam bastard to take this photo*
HAHAHA! Marcus Choo you will be like that in 50 years! this man will come haunting you ah!

So anyways, when i went to work today there was a new trainee, she's from the Philippines and she's only 19 years old same as me. Can you imagine? at that age you have to leave your family, your life there just to come work to support yourself and your family.
There was this look on her face, it wasn't the shy i am new face. It was more of the I HAVE TO DO THIS! I HAVE TO WORK! I HAVE TO BE HERE IN THIS FOREIGN COUNTRY! the look that said, working here will help my family have a better life! And behind that little smile she had on was alot of pain and alot of worries...

And what am i doing? what are we doing? I mean okay! i am working part-time to be independent. but seriously...i am like partying, studying, going out...enjoying life! And this girl could be doing the same as me the same as all of us, but no! she's leaves her hometown to a place she's never been. just so she can help her family and herself to get a better life!:(

Bleak! as i may sound until now! Last night was an awesome night!:)
peekturrreeesssss:)

Marcus says, "show me you're a tiger!'
he was high! usual red in the face after a few sips of beer

when K and i have the camera focus on us! we go wild!

Did i mention we ditched Timbre and made our way to haji cos we decided to have shisha and continue our mission to get Dinny drunk!
as usual i couldn't stop laughing at the fact Dinny couldn't walk straight!
people! we walked from substation to haji! freaking haji!

"EEEEEWWW! that was what was going on in my head MARCUS! Act strong boy only!"
yuck!HAHA

CHEERS! to the little boy who's turned 18th!
i swear he went to the toilet lie 10 times that night.LOL:)

"BRAdarhood reunited once again for a night of fun and giggles"
it's been a long time since i saw K and M:)
ilovemyhomeboys;)

LOOK AT THE SO CALLED SHOOTERS!

Cos it's ladies night and the feelings right...
ooohhhh yeaaahhhhh....
last wednesday..
S.w and I decided to go mambo, but of course we had a plan to get free drinks the whole night, so KIASU as we could get, we lined up for phuture chops as early as 830pm and then we headed to clarke quay to get free drinks from arena and attica. We were in luck my KC bitches Jo and Bee also decided to club, so we joined forces, since they were clubbing with some of their friends! had a couple of lychee martinis at arena 5 if i remember? then headed to attica for champagne and housepours!
I PUKED! it was super funny! i freaking showered the floor at attica with puke after 5 martinis and 3 champagne and 1 bourbon coke, i was like....
i think i am going to throw up....
*turns around and puked* too late for the toilet

oh wells, it was an awesome night after all, since we headed back to Zouk for more drinks, jagerbomb baby! ONE FOR ONE!!!

Oh ya! Sorry michelle you had my puke on you dress! ooooppps!

I am moving on. Bored again at home!

2009-03-16T22:12:00.000-07:00

I was so bored at home last week before i got the job at the IT SHOW.
but now that it's over. i am officially bored with life again. not until camp starts!:)
yay! i get to see my homies again:)

I was on duty to recruit freshies for FMS FOC'09 "PIRATES":)
and like guess what? OMG! my cousin is in mass comm too. you go joel:)
he'll be like my junior!
i saw a couple of people at the convention center yst!
but this one fella caught my eye. i don't know why?
OMG! i swear he's got such a cute ass. not mentioning names though i so totally know his name. i remember him from last year's s*p*r* camp. he was one of the GLs, but something about him yesterday just caught my attention. i was so shy! *blushes*

"i am moving on"

and guess what???!!!! i was going through my FB account! and checking out photos and all. and he's like my FRIEND:):) i remember this guy adding me some time back. but i totally confused him with another guy! he has the same name of course as the guy i took him to be. i thought he was *** from TP. and when i went to his account! it says we're already friends:) HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHH! i am such a loser la!

"come on baby light my fire....."

he's ass is so so cute! *GRABBIINNNNNGGGGGGGG*

and Mir has met her soul mate. and it was fate that she met him again at Cine, when we went there after school to watch COMING SOON! i swear! fucking scarrrrrrrrryyyyyyyy!
mir and i screamed like mad! we were kept in suspense throughout the movie!
THE HORROR.THE HORROR!
and it was also fate that i saw "Mr KIV" there:)

seriously! go watch it! awesome show!
i was freaked out for the first time in my life!
and the worst part when i got home, my lil sis just got back from her school trip to Cambodia.
and she was telling us all the WEIRD GHOSTLY things that happened at the Hotel she stayed at.
it was so creepy! She even brought back the evidence!
she brought her little card rosary with her, just for protection. *my parents and grandparents very holy*
she left the card rosary on the dressing table at the hotel the night before. and when she got up the next morning. she found it there BROKEN INTO HALF!!!!!!!
OMG! SHIT! I SWEAR! FREAKY RIGHT????!!!!
I SUPPOSE WHATEVER WAS THERE HAUNTING THE ROOM OR THE HOTEL.tried to test her faith!

sent shivers down my spine.

NEVER MISS A WORD!

2009-03-10T04:46:00.000-07:00

omg omg! YAY:) i got like hired for like the first time in so many interviews!:):):)
i know i'm only going to be working 4days! But it's better then nothing!
THANKS MED! luckily got up to reply to your 1am call:):):) and waking up and getting our ass for the interview at 9.30am was so worth it:)

we entered the office thinking we were going to sell THUMBDRIVES!!!!
but it turned out to be THE PULSE SMART PEN!
i swear people, it was the scariest job interview i have ever been in my life!!!!!
we had to freaking SELL the product to the interviewer!
The PEN is AMAZINGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!
it's pretty expensive but i swear it's like you mini robot!
NEVER MISS A WORD!
i was so nervous pitching the idea to him! but i tried my best!
after the interview he said he'll call back!
and YES! he did:)

i think it was because i went to church on a weekday!
and sat in for mass!
talking about that! we were walking by Our Lady of Lourdes church in bugis, when med's brilliant idea a great sense of curiosity lead her to say, "OMG! I WANNA GO INTO A CHURCH AND SEE WHAT IT'S LIKE".....
so we went, being as Holy as i could, i tried to explain what goes on during mass. Jan and i were expressing how we always thought ALTAR BOYS are like Hot and Cute!:):):)
i mean not all of them, but like most of them are. they look so innocent standing up at the altar being all holy and listening to the word of god!

next on our journey to like spending the day wondering bugis! we walked to haji lane after we escaped mass! i mean, we stayed till the end of the homily!
i brought med and jan to house of japan at haji lane!
and we made her try on the most hideous dresses!LOLS:)
so funny ah!!! i got pictures on FB. go check them out! (HAHA! lazy to upload here!)

we then headed to LA SALLE where we spent the entire day lying on grass and crashing art classes!:)
like seriously! we met up with friends from there, who showed us around and let us crash their classes!
and i swear i had like a 10 minute NAP on the grass which is like the coolest area in the school.
it's like FAKE GRASS! and people just lie there using their lappies and some even sleep! LIKE ME! dam shiok!:)

so i might not be posting anything for the next few days cause i'll be busy busy working:)
but for tomorrow......
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY LAVINNA! I LOVE YOU:)
finally legal:) yay! i am going to bring you clubbing! i don't care! must come!

LAVINNA THE HAIR:)

Rain Rain go away.We're going on adventure!:)

2009-03-09T07:27:00.000-07:00

Our plans got all screwed cos of the rain!
i didn't sleep much last night. in fact i haven't been sleeping much the past few nights cos i just can't sleep!
last night i had to shove earphones in my ears and blasted the music so loud to put myself to sleep.
it was almost 4 in the morning when i went into a deep sleep.
mr.man texted in the morning to tell me he was going to KL.dam it! why is everyone enjoying themselves? and i am stuck here with no job! no money!:(
BLEAKNESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!

Plans for the day:
-meet W for "supposed job hunting in town (didn't work out.cos it was raining)
-go cycling and spend the day at east coast (didn't work out either)
-play pool at parkway with Mir twins, ej and med and friends (NAH!)
-go bowling with the Mir twins and med and friends. (CHECKED:)

BOOOWLLLLIIINNNNGGGGGG!!!
yupp! so we decided on bowling since it was indoors and it was on the list for "THINGS WE NEED DO TO DURING THE HOLIDAYS".
W didnt want to come cos she's not that into it. darn! i haven't seen her for ages. and i miss her:) our plans always somehow get screwed up!
but bowling at marine cove was FUN:) i wore a hoody to keep a low key. considering the fact that beach hut was just around the corner and i haven't gone there for more since October last year! it's as though i ditched that work place. but come on! i can't work Sunday mornings!

Med was so funny when she bowled she kept on with a new technique everytime it was her turn and everytime she missed she was like , "I GIVE UP LA. this game is not for me"
"The boys were obviously better! IDIOTS! stupid male strength!"
i tried my best:) OMG! but the funny thing was that when i ACTION ACTION TOOK THE HEAVIER BALL, I WAS JUST ABOUT TO AIM AND THROW THE BOWL FLEW BACK.AND ROLLED BACK!!!!!!!!HAHAHAHAHAHAHHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA:)
luckily Brother Mir was there to stop the ball with foot.Med's ball flew back also.Certified BIMBO:)
after bowling we decided to go to the arcade nearby to play DDR. ok! i know it may sound fucking ah lian and beng all but. it;s fun when u do stuff you don't usually do.
Mir failed at DDR but brother Mir was expert!!! ( i swear he plays it like all the time. since he was so good. like so kind of secret hobby.LOL:)

so to the part where we WENT ON ADVENTURE!
we headed to starbucks at the old big splash.
the 4 girls were left.
then our brilliant plan to go to Parkway for diner led to our adventure.....
I mean parkway was just across the expressway and all we had to do was walk through the under pass.

on our journey to the nearest underpass.
OUR MUSIC VIDEO was in process. "COME ON OVER COME ON OVER BABY........"
we tried out best with sexy moves and leaning against the wall.mir and med not bad not bad. i think it's in the blood:) U'll DRY HUMPING THE WALL.hahahahahahahahahahahhahaah!
after walking through the underpass and getting out!
THERE WAS NO PATHWAY TO PARKWAY! IT WAS ALL JUST GRASS! FUCK! WE TOOK THE WRONG UNDERPASS IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN THE ONE AFTER! CCB!
being as daring and as bimbo as we could be. we decided to walk on the grass to the end! WHICH WAS ACTUAL A FUCKING LONG DISTANCE! MIND YOU PPL WERE LOOKING AT US IN THEIR CARS FROM THE ECP!
WE LOOKED LIKE ESCAPE CONVICTS RUNNING AWAY! HOT ESCAPING BIMBOS ON A HIKE!

but....through all the wining and complaining about how we HAVE to walk a the grass which might even have SNAKES....
WE HAD BUSES OF FANNS WATCHING OUR ADVENTUROUS JOURNEY TO PARKWAY!
ARMY BOYS YA'LL! BUSES LOADS OF THEM THAT PASSED BY ONE AFTER THE OTHER. HORNY ARMY BOYS! *HORNY SMILE*
i love it ah! they like wave waved at us. all their faces wondering what the HELL we WERE DOING WALKING ALONG THE ECP ON GRASS!
so we happily happily waved and smiled back! laughing our asses off!

the worst is yet to come!

when we reached the end of the pastures! THERE WAS NO FUCKING ENTRY! LIKE IT WAS A FREAKING LONGKANG! NO WAY OF US CROSSING OVER TO PP!
WE WERE ALL LIKE I AM NOT FUCKING WALKING BACK ON THE GRASS!
LUCKILY, THE WAS A PATHWAY ALONG THE LONGKANG. SO WE TOOK THE RISK AGAIN!
WE WALKED TO THE END! BUT THE ONLY WAY WE COULD GET OUT WAS THE CLIMB OVER THE FUCKING RAILINGS WHICH WERE QUITE HIGH!
BUT WAIT.....
WE SAW A FUCKING DEAD DOG! LIKE IT'S BODY! BUT NO FUR!
IT WAS REALLY SMALL. BUT THE MOUTH WAS OPEN AND IT HAD TEETH. IT LOOKED SO SCARY, "GGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRR" AS THOUGH IT WAS GROWLING AT US.
AND AND! MIR ACTUALLY TOUCHED IT WITH HER FOOT! GROSS!

I SWEAR THE DOG IS GOING TO HAUNT HER!

med was so funny climbing over the railings. she was the last! and mind you'll they were NO GUYS TO HELP us! just us 4 girls.
it was like some kind of obstacle! we were so relief when we got over! like finally! PARKWAY! it was like heaven seeing that place!

can you imagine! SO ADVENTUROUS right?????!!!!

we did a BIMBO cheer after we accomplished our Journey!:)

"LIKE GGGGGGGGGGOOOOOOOOOOO UUUUUUUSSSSSSSSSS:):):):):)"

A HOUSE IS A MACHINE FOR LIVING IN!

2009-03-07T23:32:00.000-08:00

my godma's shophouse in joo chiat.totally vintage.it's empty or being rented out cause she's in Atlanta with her american husband who i have never met! just seen photos. but i would love love love to buy it some day:)

A house???!!!
yes! people! i want my own house this is my plan:

by 21 years old: finish poly.get job.earn money.get into uni after i've earned enough.mean while rent a house or flat.stay on my own or maybe with a friend.

i smell sweet FRRREEEEEEDDDDOOOOMMMMMMMM!:)

i still remember in secondary school, my bitches and i always talked about renting a place and living together:) so cool right?
but seriously! i want to move out! it's not a bad thing like i have to do it immediately.it's just that i want to be independent.like really independent!
i m practically independent now.just that i'm broke as hell!
i mean i use my money to buy everything.like the only thing my dad pays for is my school fees, gives my money for food and transport.
I BUY MY OWN STUFF! i finance my clubbing expenditure.i pay my own bills.i buy my own clothes etc.....
it's been like this since when? since i was sec3???
so i'm really use to the fact that everything i purchase is from my hard earn cash!
but now.... I AM BROKE! i have never ever been as broke as i am in my entire life!
I HAVE NO JOB for like now during the hols.so as you know i am suffering like hell.
i have so many birthdays coming up.Sorry i guys!:) i owe you'll:)

LIFE'S A BITCH!

talking about a HOUSE being a MACHINE for living....
i have a routine. stay home every other day.that means go out every other day.
that will keep my expenditure LOW! And I REALLY NEED TO GET OUT!
i will kill myself if i stayed home everyday!
DIE OF BOREDOM!
i wake up just in time for lunch.after lunch i'm online doing i don't know what???!!!
depressing about life half the time! depressing about how i don't have job.depressing about how i have no money! TIMES ARE BAD!
watch over and over again movies i've watched like a million times and series of shows like 90210 and gossip girl over and over again on my mac.
"SERIOUSLY GIRL, GET A LIFE!"
and the days' like that everyday if i'm at home...blah blah blah!
and i can't sleep early! earliest 2am!
oh! and i just realised that i have a problem! a serious problem.
i'm addicted to going online and like facebook!
really!

tried tidying my room.didn't work out! i'm only half done.
went through all my old stuff. looking through old photos.
and that's when i decided to create a group for my KC class:)
one way all of us can keep in contact. since we've all gone our separate ways.

been meeting up with the KC bitches lately! but one or two's always MIA.
now that we're all on holiday we're trying to catch up on our lives.

KC gang bang! let's see...out of the 11 of us...
3 of us are UNATTACHED!
i am one of them.the rest all have bfs.
GGGRRRRRRRRR! i need man! shit!
i know we're all the same like horny and cheeky and bitchy!
so we're always comparing who's done what with who???
*winks winks*
*major make-out session needed asap*

(KC promise: Keep virginity till 21. If not meet at St.Pats bus stop when the whole gang's turned 21 and everyone spill the beans! whoever's still a virgin CERTIFIED VirginMary and the rest certified WHORES) lols:)

imissmyguybestfriend. you know who you are.where ever you are!
you haven't called or texted. i have no clue where you are. your line is always cut. you just strayed into the wrong crowd.and i miss you kurty boy!:(
when am i ever going to see you again?!
you made a promise to me.but it looks like you didn't keep it.
I HATE YOU for making me HATE YOU for making me feel this way.
i miss the random phone calls at 2 in the morning.and all the other random things we used to talk about. you're my MIA bestfriend.always have and always will be that way.it's been 2 months since i last heard from you.i think i have moved on.HAVE I? i don't know...
*Coffin scene*

back to having a really BLEAK LIFE.
i read my horoscope.and i know it's not always true but whenever i do read it.it somehow fits into what's happening in my life right now.weird!

7th March, Aquarius :"Don't let your best ideas suffer thanks to some other ideas that you're just hanging on to for old time's sake. It's one of those days when you need to clear your queue, but it can be pretty hard to do so.
Today :"Try not to get too worked up over your latest relationship glitch. These things happen and today's is just a sign that things are working normally, not your cue to panic or abandon ship!
(http://horoscopes.astrology.com/dailyaquariustom.html)

"I'm not always comfortable with subtle"

I AM A PERSON & PEOPLE GROW:)

2009-03-05T03:17:00.000-08:00

iwasborn12thFebruary1990

my 19th birthday.

at the stroke of midnight the messages were flowing in.
phone calls from my two besties in the world:)
thanks guys:)

Birthday Wishes For My Friend

On your birthday,
I wish for you the fulfillment
of all your fondest dreams.
I hope that for every candle
on your cake
you get a wonderful surprise.
I wish for you that
whatever you want most in life,
it comes to you,
just the way you imagined it,
or better.
I hope you get as much pleasure
from our friendship as I do.
I wish we were sisters,
so I could have known you
from the beginning.
I look forward to
enjoying our friendship
for many more of your birthdays.
I'm so glad you were born,
because you brighten my life and fill it with joy.
Happy Birthday!
By Joanna Fuchs

I had to go to school for the LAST TUTORIAL CLASS OF YEAR ONE!
believe it or not.but it was nice:)
was welcomed to school with bday gifts from my homies.
THANK YOU'LL:)
i loved them all.
they planned a mini bday celebration for me at haji lane.so fun!
it was just us.we had the whole room to ourselves.
D&N feel inlove with the owner.cos he was supposedly HOT!
okay! ya he was!:):):)

SMILES 19 year old girl:)

check out what's written on the cake, "HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEXY GERMAINE"
the cake was ever so yummy.
according to nirmalan he said he had the same cake for his birthday also.HAHA:)

omg! haha i look like a small girl cutting her cake.
awwwwww...

my LOVES of ngee ann poly mass comm T105:)
without you'll in school i don't know what to do!
next sem we will no longer be in the same class:(
how now brown cow?

THE FEBRUARY GIRLS:)
meloveyouthamsiwing
aka
facebookhusband:)

My 19TH:)

"OLD AGE IS A WOMAN'S HELL"

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THERE ARE SO FEW WHO CAN GROW OLD WITH A GOOD GRACE

OK! It's been ages since i've last blogged!

2009-03-05T01:11:00.000-08:00

HOLIDAYS!:)
My last post was ages ago! LIKE OMG!
ok! i may sound BIMBO. but i am so not!
Mir, tell them we're like a GUY GIRL. we totally buddy with like everyone.like i'm a guy's buddy! This is way mir and i don't have boyfriends.we're just too cool for everyone.
but we know, we each have our special someone. as in we're EYEing!
WE LOVE DICKS:)
okay, maybe just me! horny as it may sound. ilovethem.not dicks literally!
gosh!
just boys!ilovethem ah! HOT ONES!:) yumyum:)

back to why i am even blogging,
since i'm officially on holiday now!
I HAVENOLIFE.NOMONEY.NOJOB.
basically LIFE IS BLEAK!

i have been contemplating blogging for the past few weeks but i was just too lazy and maybe because i have been going out everyday and clubbing my life away,
until today! COS' I HAVE NO MONEY!:(

i have gone for a couple of job interviews.oKAY! maybe just 3! but like HELLO! it's a recession period NO ONE IS HIRING!
and some companies are just RACIST! like the one my homies and i went yesterday AT OUB centre building.whatever! just because we were the only COLOURED people in the room!
WE ARE FUN AND COOL AND ENTHUSIASTIC!:)
and i bet we are like the only ONES WHO ACTUALLY SPEAK FLUENT ENGLISH!
*back at you*
according to Mir, we happened to be the most good looking people in the room!
HONEST! *cross my heart and swear to die*

Depress as we were.RETAIL THERAPY always works for anyone.
i decided to join Med and her homies to LITTLE INDIA but before that we all got our asses to Peninsula for some jamming sessions with Yj and gang.which i didn't get to see.because i was busy wasting my money on a plate of THE WORST HOKKIEN MEE in the world!
FYI: it was from FUNAN IT mall Food Junction!
and like Hokkien Mee's one of my favourite local dishes:(
but my tummy was ever so satisfied with NAAN for little india for dinner.yummmy:)

Alot has been happening in my life. I just turned 19 like 3 weeks ago.I FEEL OLD!:(
but life has got to go own! there are loads of pictures i haven't uploaded here cos they're all on my FB:) that thingy is so efficient.iloveit. and as everyone knows my friendster is so dead! DEAD!

Oh ya! i am proud to say i have conquered MASS COMM year ONE!
ONE HECTIC YEAR! now just waiting for results.gosh! i hope i don't repeat any modules.
and the worst part is that i'm so HAPPY:) with my current classmates! with my new poly homies!
and now when school reopens in April. We'll have new classmates! BLEAKNESS!(ruiyi you are rubbing off me)
i got to stop!

i decided i will have individual post for all the stuff i did but didn't blog about:)

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"One can never be too thin or too rich"

SEVEN POUNDS!

2009-01-13T00:15:00.001-08:00

SEVEN POUNDS!
yupp watched it yesterday with my homies M & Ej:)
i was thinking ok! this movie must have something to do with an action thriller.
where Will Smith's some kind of private detective.
But no.....
he's just a regular guy, haunted by his past!
haunted by the fact that HE didn't DIE but the rest did.
that it was all his fault they had to die.
because of his mistake.
so he decides to donate SEVEN of his organs to seven random people who are helpless and who he believes are "Worthy".

i'm thinking CRAZYYY....
who donates their organs to 7 random people???

oh ya! a lil romance in the story spiced things up!:)
so romantic!
he falls inlove with the woman he's planning to give his heart to.

*this is the part where you say: AAWWWW...*

pause.
OMG! EFFING HOT!!!!
orgasmic i swear.
*faints*
i love him ah!
my favourite actor in like a million years.
check out his body....
"OOOOHHHHHHH"

back to the part where i reflect on this movie.
ps. M and i cried in the movie!!!!!
sob sob.
i didn't really cry much.
just until the end. after he kills himself and one by one those who received his organs start reading the letter he wrote to them.

*voice over of him talking*

tears rolling down my cheeks.
eyeliner all smudging.
M cried the most.
she was really touched.

after the show.
M asked if i would donate a part of my organ if she was desperate and dying.
would i be FRIEND enough? kind enough? brave enough?
i wondered....
i think i would?
would i?
if my friend was lying in hospital bed dying.
and i was the only one that could help?
wwwoooaaah! this is creeping me out!

STOP!
it's kind of scary if you ask me.
i would do it.
to save a life.
to save a Friend's life.

"my greatest fear in life is dying"

i wondered if i died tomorrow? or today? or in 10 years?...

If i died would the world care?
if i died would they cry?
if i died who would dedicate a eulogy for me?
if i died would my friends miss me?
if i died would it still be the same?
if i died could i move on?
if i died would i live again?

"that out of sight is out of mind is true of most we leave behind"

:)

2009-01-12T23:45:00.000-08:00

again lazy to upload photos to my previous post.
oh no wait!
i didn't have the photos until they were uploaded on FB.
so here they are!
omg! check out HOT DANNY ZUKO aka DJ:)
AWESOME show!:)
i just love it!

we were bored before the Musical started so as usual.....
CAM WHORE ppl!:):):)
whoot whoot!

post GREASE performance!
omg! and we meet atiqah there. what a coincidence?
right?????!! feels like IS class all over again.
and CHEEEESEEE.
no wait!
say: "GREASSSSEEEEEE":)

That's a Wrap!

2009-01-11T02:40:00.000-08:00

exhausted.
after 2days being on duty for FMSagents on NP OPEN HOUSE!
i think if i had been on duty for 3days straight i would have died!
i surrender.

pause.
thinking 2009 would be a rather hectic year for me.
since i'd be closing in on my fist year in poly and moving on to my second year.
i'd be a busy busy bee.so i decided to get myself a proper organiser compared to the ones i use to design on my own. i was too lazy to write the dates and stuff like that.
so i happened to get this really cute 'nightingale' one it's a really simple designed one.
and i like it.it has a straw-like hard cover.vintaged.
and inside on every page for everyday of the year theres's a little "quote of the day" at the bottom.so i've decided to make full use of those quotes:)

back on track.
Np had their annual open house from 8th to 10th January. and being the enthu person that i am i signed up for duty to give tours around FMS block.trying to psycho students to join the courses offered by FMS.HAHA! THEY DON'T KNOW THE TORTURE THEY'RE GETTING THEMSELVES INTO!
but of cause i only did it for CCA points!DUH!???! who wouldn't?!
M was appointed to host the open house with D at the Atrium so she didn't really give much tours.LOLS!:) she was Happy Happy talking to herself on stage and making her own jokes to keep the crowd entertained.
*p.s I'm proud of you M. Talented balls*
oh ya! i totally forgot to mention that i am still very very jealous that you got to host with Shan and Ros from Perfect10! ggggrrrrrrr......
i wanted to see Shan so so badly.he's so HOT la!;)

so day ONE on duty.
"Hello, Welcome to the School of Film and Media Studies, i'm Germaine and i'm a first year Mass Comm student".
giving tours wasn't that bad. it was giving it over and over and over and over and over and over again that was so so tiring! i think i repeated myself so many times because the crowd wouldn't stop coming! it was seriously exhausting! tour after tour.
i felt like a tape recorder.
PLAY.STOP.REWIND.REPEAT.
i did this for the whole duration of the opne house.
if only i could really just record myself.and press the PLAY button everytime i took a new group!

day TWO on duty.last day of Open House.
thank God i had breakfast that day because it was the only thing i ate the whole day! when i say whole day i am talking 10am to 11pm!!!!!! i just drank bottles of water that kept me hydrated for the whole dam day.because straight away after the open house M,Yj and I rushed back to the east.Thanks to M's mom we got there on time.i mean EARLY! for The Grease Musical that i have been waiting for a year to watch!FINALLY!
so the last day of open house was worst because there was a bigger crowd! tours round FMS block carried on like this the whole day in the same sequence.

8th floor: APR wall,radio presentation studio,graphcomm wall, photo journalism wall...BLAH BLAH BLAH
9th floor: Wall of Fame(works by FSV students), TV production studio 1&2, 48 track recording studio, preview theatre...BLAH BLAH BLAH
1st floor: Tv journalism studio & Soundstage aka Green screen room...BLAH BLAH BLAH

on and on the same thing! i thought i was going mad because i kept repeating myself the whole day! no time to stop.pause and breathe!
i wondered if i left a good impression about myself and about FMS???haha!:)
i gave surveys out after each tour.
there was a section on the survey: Grade your tour agent according to the questions.
eg.Was your tour agent Friendly? Carried out the tour well?..etc...
tick: strongly agree,agree,strongly disagree and disagree.
guess what they ticked???!!!!
STRONGLY AGREE & AGREE!
omg! YAY! me:):):)

"Acting is a form of confusion"- yet it's the only thing i can relate to.

Grease The Musical, 10th january @8pm.
my cousin DJ was the lead as Danny Zuko:)
so so so proud of him!
the whole jingbang went to watched.
sat together.half the time orry was making his cheeky horny jokes.
swine that fella!HAHA:)
the whole performance was awesome with fantastic vocals!
i'm impressed!
my favourite part was when the guy sang, "Beauty School Drop Out"
omg! FANTASTIC! he was so so good!
and of course my favourite song in the whole musical, "You better shape up"
one word.
WOW!
is that even a word?

ok so back to the part where i said WE DIDN'T EAT THE WHOLE DAY!
after the concert which ended about 11pm after all the Thank Yous and Hug Hug Kiss Kiss.
while the whole family and the band people went to Chevy's to celebrate.
i went to simpang instead with my homies:)
we ate! FINALLY!
oh ya joke of the day.
when M and I were expressing our state of hunger to L,
this is how she replied,
"oh ya ah! i didn't eat the whole day also......*it's coming*......
BUT I ATE 5 CHICKEN WINGS"
LOLS:)
that's L for you.You're a JOKE la!haha!
HELLO! WHEN WE SAY WE DIDN'T.WE REALLY DIDN'T EAT!
NOTHING!

after a long long day.reached home about ONEish in the morning.
and as i tucked myself in bed.
I sighed.
closed my eyes to sleep.
dreammmmzzzzz...

" Being another character is more interesting than being yourself"

some pictures during the holidays!:)

2009-01-07T00:34:00.001-08:00

OK! people! see all the happy faces!???? omg! of course because were all on holiday.
i like kinda forgot and was too lazy to upload any photos for my previous posts. so like here was some of the crazy stuff i did during the December hols.basically most of the pictures are on facebook. my new online bestfriend.

glad.bee.jo.xuan.germz
KC reunion.well, not exactly! cause only some of use were there!
where?! omg! MAMBO of course!
everyone was there! all my NP homies. best night ever! got high over like a bottle of Bacardi that SW,M & i shared! awesomeness!

" i wrote my name in the sand but the waves washed it away. so i wrote in your heart and that's where it will stay"

me and brother homie K:)
peace out!

Bowing day 08' V's 17th Birthday!
530pm @ parkway V calls me and ask where i was and if i knew how to start a fire for the BBQ!
OMG! i was like us a fire starter???!!
V was "it's ok, we'll wait for you guys to come and start the fire"
mine you she lives at the other end of the world!haha.
so thanks to D we had food. his manly essence came about for like an hour,
but after that he went back to normal.
mind you! swimming after eating and "drinking" is not a very good idea.
HELLO! PUT YOUR BOXERS BACK ON!

"we gangsta"

the second day of the holiday. EJ decided to throw a get-together before he left for London.
we ate. well the others ate at simpang. and they bought back for us:)
awwwww.Thanks Ej for the mee goreng and bee hoon goreng treat! yummy:)
the guys decided to swim while the rest of us; R,V,E,M,Yj sat down "drank" and played the guitar.talented ya'll:)
after the security chased us away from the the pool area.
it was time for GUITAR HERO!!!!!!!!!!:)
awesomeness!:)

"Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall"

when you say nothing at all...

2009-01-02T09:41:00.000-08:00

i still wonder how life works without LOVE?

i watched twilight the other day.
and i sat and thought how LOVE develops into a story.
a whole new world.

I Need Love i told myself.

If only the movie/story becomes reality. i would be Amazing!
Way of life without it would seem impossible.

I just sat down.my imagination ran wild.
ok! maybe not. but just think about it. every girl wants her very own vampire!

I want my vampire!
NOT COMING TRUE. still a dream.
just thinking about him makes me SMILE inside.

Back to reality!

wait.
M and i still want our vampire!

ok.
I am trying my best to get my shit together.
really!
focus button switch ON pleaseeeee...

today, first marketing project meeting of the year!
i would say it was ok! we got stuff done.
our creativity exploded.a whole new concept for our webdesign came about.
all thanks to BEAN GIRL.

p.s Mir sorry i imagined BEAN GIRL with curly hair like Choo.LOLS:)
so funny!

the stupid song's still in my head...
"Ide Ide Ide Ide Ide aye...."
pause.

the best is yet to come

the countdown to my 19th birthday begins
so near yet so far.
41days.
i feel old.OMG! NO.........!
i want to stay 18 forever!
maybe i should get bitten by Edward, then i can be immortal.
then again like Mir said,"i want to see what i look like when i'm 25"
i wonder.

omg! sudden thought!

I MISS KC

ok.maybe not so sudden.because i was thinking of all the school kids going back on their first day.

i miss having to wake up early and changing into a uniform leaving my house WITHOUT MAKE-UP!
OMG! total SIN!
i miss my KC bitches. if only we were in the same poly???!!!???
kudos to all-Dash,Mary,Xuan,Bee,Jo,Glad,Shahrom,Rashid,tabi,sue,mika.
KC REUNION SOON PLS!
i miss wearing a uniform, morning assembly and pray.
i think i can't remember how to say the pledge?!
and i hardly pray now, just on sundays in church. i think?
i miss cheap canteen food!
the advantage of being a student in uniform!
talk about BUS FARE!
BURN! BURN!
No money!
I miss my teachers.
i miss being a chairperson.

Responsible.Reliable.Confident

But hey!
i am lovin' poly!
it's working out for me.
omg! i totally forgot to express my happiness for the new canteen in sch!
Next to FMS block! omg!
yes people! next to our block!

It's like a dream come true. a magical place!.....MAKAN PLACE!

it's gonna be my new fav place in school.
it has subway! SUBWAY!:)

we shall have happy times there.

enough.FULLSTOP.

the feeling inside me still shimmers.right there.in my heart.

the beginning of 2009 wicked sweet

2009-01-01T05:56:00.000-08:00

2009 wicked sweet!

first of all happy new year! i love you guys!
omg! what away to start the new year????
it was good and bad.

good because of my lovely homies came to celebrate with me at my crib
bad because of all the drama that happened after midnight! ( whoever was there knew)

seriously why can't people just hold their liquor????!!!!
THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS UNDER THE INFLUENCED OF ALCOHOL.
people say things they don't mean.(or actually they do say things that they mean.you know when you're like drinking everything is to be blamed on alcohol.the way you act.the things you say.so you know some people might actually take advantage of being high.IT"SCRAZY i tell you)

we ate.drank.laughed.cracked jokes! HIGHNESS! AWESOMEness!:)
i'm lovin' it!

so happy happy.suddenly you hear 10, 9.....5,4,3,2,1....HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
we all looked at each other,oh ok! HAPPY NEW YEAR!
the hugs and kisses follows after!
everyone went around wishing.
POP!!!!!!!!

drinking drinking.shots.shots to the max!
ok! i feel its coming out! it just can't stay in!
(PUKED)
more like whatever just went in came out!.wasted that shot!
giggles.
ok! moreeeeeeeeeeee!

then blah blah for awhile....

this is where the bad part comes in! fighting fighting.crying crying.
things that are not meant to be said. was said!

then blah blah......end of BAD part!

cause guess who came???
took that fella long enough to come!

more drinking.but this time it was more subtle.
played a couple of games.laughed.giggled.
nipples were licked.chest was sucked licked.
ears were nibbled.lips were touch kiss.you name it we did it.
(credits to O's HORNY dice)
lovin' it again.

then thanks to Z's brilliant idea.
we all sang....
"Ide Ide Ide Ide aye........"
"your father so smelly...i think it's very true...he got big biceps...he think he very strong..."
"Ide Ide Ide Ide aye..."
"rav is so black...you cannot see her in the dark...but its ok...now is already morning...we can try to see her...HAPPY NEW YEAR..."

and on and on it goes..."Ide Ide Ide Ide Ide aye..."

the boys as usual were eating non stop! like from the time they came till what??? 7am?!

i was actually awake to smell the fresh air of the NEW YEAR!
as Issey said, "come on guys, this is the first morning of 2009! and we are actually up to see it.let's all try to take it in"

I absorbed that morning sunshine.i felt good!
the feeling of fresh morning dew of your face.the essence of a new year ahead.
the torture of school work ahead.the feeling of misery.
but wait.ILOVELIFE!
the happiness.friendships growing all year round.fun and excitement waiting for me!
just letting it all out.......i secretly shouted FREEDOM in my head!
I SMILED so widely inside no one could imagine the happiness i was feeling inside.

as i laid on my bed of the first morning of 2009.
i thought.i felt.i imagined.i remembered.
i SMILED myself to sleep.though the tears we invincible.

new year resolution: RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW! *I don't have one*
why?! i am happy with how life is treating me.and how it creates this whole new feeling inside of me.it's not happy nor sad or anger.it just feels right!
thank you!:)

i sign off gladly as a person with THAT FEELING inside.

It's the eve of the last day of 2008!

2008-12-30T05:21:00.002-08:00

happiness.sadness.excitement.joy.love& peace.

ok! so i totally haven't blogged for ages! cause i've been really, i dunno what do you call it? BUSY!?

lets see if i still got it.
i am thanking.
yupp that's what i'll talk about first, THANKS!

2008 has been wonderful, i still remember what i did last NYE, and what i did after *winks winks*
and with who.
it was fun and subtle.
drink.drank.drunk.

but not too drunk.

for all the awesome friends i made this year in NP. ILOVEYOUGUYS. and to all the random ones i made too i am lovin it'.

let's see if i can get everyone's name:

ORPHANAGE: marcus, eugene & huiting

BRAdarhood: marcus, kin yunn, valerie, jill, lydia, zach, xuan

Classmates: marissa, lavinna, swing, danny, natalie, justine, meljane, yogi, luke, don, nerizza, alyssa, gage, joyce, gerladine, i think that's all???
*ps. we only have like 2 months more together:(

mcm mates: ej, yj, nigel, mellu, rui yi, vannessa, tessa, amiril, atiqah, emeline...etc... so many i can't get all the names!
basically the whole of mcm la!

NP friends/homies: justin,syahmi, tim, izzad, faris, jasper, axel........the list goes on!

AWESOMEness!
iheartyou'llmanymany!:)

Now for flashback:

Jan: hmm.... i dunno just going out and going out with xuan and all.
the crazy stuff we use to do everyday. the tuesday gelare dates with dean. i am still missing it!

Feb: oh course the best month ever cause of my awesome 18th Bday bash. *i think i got like high* if i can remember.the night i met *winks winks* we shook hands as he introduced himself at my party, it was like this...."hey! thanks for coming i'm germmmaaainnneeeee" (i threw up)
okok! i know total embarrasment! but he still stayed over night man!:)
presents.presents!yay!:)

March: a new chapter of my life begins with YOUKNOWHO and YOUKNOWWHAT happened that night in who's house? *not so drama la* and it wasn't a HOMERUN if that's what you're thinking! nothing like that.
i was nice.sleeping in the arms of angel.LOLS:)OMG!

April: New school.new friends.a whole new start:) but i am staring to love it and hate it at the same time!

May till like December: Clubbing.clubbing.clubbing....party.party.party.school.school.friends.outings.movies...bLAH BLAH BLAH.....the usual:)

"Right here.Right NOW!"
"Can you imagine what could happen if we could have any dream? I wish this moment is our to own it and that it will never leave.
Then i would thank that star that made our wish come true.
Cause you know that where you are is where i should be too.
Right here right now i'm looking at you and my heart looks at you.
cause you mean everything.
Right here, i promise you somehow, tomorrow can wait and some other day to be.
cause right now there's you and me."
*i totally changed some words, but who cares?*

that's what we should all be thankful for, Right here! Right now!

2008 is coming to an end, but 2009 is here! awaiting us, or should i say we're awaiting it!
the new adventures coming ahead.

I AM COMING FOR YOU!

and as i sing myself to sleep. i will tear and remember everything you have already given me.
the times i had.i will cherish.and i will slowly close my eyes and dream of the wonder that this place has shown me.
and i will wake up again.As my eyes try to open after hours of sleep.i will SMILE:)
smile that i know i have another tomorrow!
and more tomorrows...

It's the eve of the last day of 2008!

2008-12-30T05:21:00.001-08:00

FROST IS CANCELLED!

2008-12-02T02:24:00.000-08:00

it really is cancelled!
:(

was so looking forward.....

FROST!:)

2008-12-01T01:22:00.000-08:00

It's Ngee Ann Polytechnic's very FIRST Christmas Party at St James Power Station and YOU'RE INVITED!

Be part of this spectacular White Christmas event and come dressed in jazzy White or Silver to blend in with the snowy theme!

'Tis the season to be jolly, so spread the joy around by inviting more of your NP friends along - the more the merrier!

Give this season by coming for the event, as all profits will go to our very own NP Student Aid Fund. Let it also be a blessing to receive, with our Lucky Draw during the event!
Stand to win several attractive prizes including classy Apple products!

So RSVP and get your tickets soon, cos we'll wanna see you there! :)

This event is proudly organized by the Film and Media Studies Society.

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This event is open to all students in Ngee Ann Polytechnic.

Cover Charge: $15 (inclusive of 2 soft drinks) (Presale), $18 (At the Door)
Dress Code: Clubbing Attire, White or Silver, No Slippers

Ticket Pre-Orders begin 24th November 2008, Monday.
Email to contact.fmssociety @ gmail.com, your:
1) Full Name
2) Student ID
3) HP number
4) Email Address

One ticket to each name, NP Students only.

For more information, contact any FMSSociety ex-co member, or email your question to contact.fmssociety @ gmail.com

Special Thanks to:

Powerhouse, NPSU, Lilica, NewUrbanMale, Sapura Technology, and the School of Film & Media Studies

Filming part 2!

2008-11-28T21:48:00.000-08:00

hello once again!

so i woke up on a beautiful Saturday morning from my beauty sleep because my dear friend J called.
*PANIC*
needed actress or should i say CALEFARE for her film.being a nice friend that i am.
i agreed.

got my ass out of bed and rushed to this dam bloody HUGE house in LERMIT ROAD to film.
i supposedly do not have lines.it's OKAY!
but then again.....I DID:)
well, i was actually planning to chiong LOGOS and BAUHAUS at home.

meeting N at wisma starbucks to do logos.

ok! back to why i am even blogging.

my filming groupies: D.M.L
together with awesome cast O & KY & like J who came to take photos!

so pictures:

a slow strolled down to east coast park led us to the shores,
where the water brushed against the sand with every wave that washed against the shores.

remember your childhood days the "old school' $1 ice cream you'd buy from the uncle who'll come by your school on the motorbike?

YES! we had that.
i had ripple.YUM YUM!:)

we reached on time to catch the sunset
but....

check out the cloud just in front of the sun!!!!!
that cloud stole our wonderful shot of the sunset.
but we dealt with it.
just imagine the rush for time to get the right pan and the right shot before the sun went down.

"isn't this the most beautiful scene you've seen?"

but before all the drama and tension,

as usual we were goofing around with the camera and our wonderful calefare cum photographer J, was the best at taking all these fantastic shots!

hey J whatcha looking at?

"Sarah meets up with James aka Adam at the sea shore, not knowing what the reason for this unsual meeting was, she asks....

"why did you ask me here?'
...
...
...
...
"the true path to enlightenment"..........

"James, i have done bad things, really bad things."
" How can you love me? you've only known me for 2 hours a night for 90 nights now"

"Sarah i think i am falling in love with you.
even if you don't call this love"

D.
M.
G.
O.
L.
KY.

according to the comments posted on FB about this photo.

O says "I am T-REX"

i just kept it yo "Peace ya'll"

M: "Peace my nigga"

" I WROTE YOUR NAME IN THE SAND,
BUT THE WAVES WASHED IT AWAY,
SO I WROTE IT IN MY HEART AND THAT'S WHERE IT WILL STAY"

Till..........
OMG! till i get logos and Bauhaus done! that's when TILL will be..........

Honey honey how....? HE?

2008-11-24T01:38:00.000-08:00

hello my friend, i miss you! i miss those days the times we shared together
the misery and the pain.the laughter and the joy.good times bad times.fun times happy times.
i love you my friend:)

"The KC bitches&babes reunited"@G.dashnee's house

the weekends have come and gone.
so little time so much to do.
i want to spend my days with you and if today is not enough maybe we could...

Bloody swine this scott & orry!
we ate real American burgers.like real huge ones!
Scott haven't seen you in ages.reunion party all over again.
scott says to orry *with digital camera in hand*: "Show me you're a tiger...ggggrrrr!"
"come on baby.give me more.give me more.MORE SEXY"

We did filming this weekend.
officially satisfied. M is missing in this picture.why oh why?
haha! she says to say:"i was the camera person"
but not to worry.she's in the other photos.
had sex scenes in her house.
in S's bedroom.
i swear that fella was HAPPY:) hot girl in his bed.
laughs.

CREW&CAST:)

I love my marketing group. M,J,N& Y.
but Y has been MIA for some time.
sick like a dog.meds 24/7
but we have to keep going.no looking back.keep moving on

LOGOS & BAUHAUS due in like a week.we DIE! totally DIE! omg! wth?
how now brown cow?
hurrrrrrrrrrrrrryyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"So little time so much to do"

ONE TIRED WEEK! MORE TO COME!!!!

2008-11-20T03:05:00.000-08:00

update:

i am so having a BF right now! omg! omg! *major BIMBO voice* just think D's voice! "bitch fit"
he kept going on about White Chicks! Like oh my effing goodies! HONEY WHITE CHICKS CAME OUT LIKE YEARS AGO! A BIT LATE HUH?

just remembered! thanks N.L.w.k

i was like on the bus and this super cheena to the maxy cab girl came up (supposedly from Some unknown international school) who like totally spoke with as we eurasian ass people say *potatoes in the mouth*
so her white friend comes up the bus like at adam's road.She stares at my white EFF BFF aka daughter of MIR.
and i'm like "HEY WHITE GIRL! I'M TALKING TO YOU WHITE GIRL"
fight la!

but of course no fight!

back to tired days:

RED CAMPY! On wednesday! yeah man! skipped lecture! woot woot or what?
i enjoyed myself with effing best partner in the world aka RAY!
love you bitch!

one or two eye candies.but you know no one can beat J!
some fella called me "pretty G(name)" *blush blush*
and stole my water bottle and kept bugging me to go to the toilet!
but it was all fun! CHEERS! wished i could tour again today, but NOOOOO....

we had:
1.webgraph: revised storyboard due!
2.medsoc: practice debate template due!
3.marketing: presentation one due!

headache! headache!

feel like crying my eyes out! but NO! listen to Mir;"stay strong germsy wormsy! we can do this! you cry i cry!" (ok, so maybe M didnt exactly say this but it's close enough)

so after RED CAMPY!
J totally screwed Y on the phone "BABE LISTEN"
Y raised voice to J
and M put her foot down to Y!

we meaning me, J, M and YJ stayed in canteen one still like 9 plus
and they put off all the freaking lights!
it was effing dark!
according to J and M i suffer from night blindness!

*Not true*

i have perfect eye sight!
so we sat there for like half an hour in the dark doing our work!
(stress!stress!)
walked to the bus stop laughing our asses off about how i suffer from night blindness!
skyped with M, till like the bus came which was freaking 40 mins later!

slept on the ride home (usual)

reached home like 2330hrs. immediatey KOed on the couch after washing up.
woke up 0430hrs to do medsoc debate!

and came to school without much sleep! tired to the max!

Marketing presentation, we didnt get marked down that much! Z was quite funny and nice to us! we actually got through it! yeepee!:)

we're so going to get through this!

*burst out into musical" "we're all in this together"
( N says: ultimate warning ah G)
LOLs:)*

oh and this i found rather funny:

according to MSN chat i had the other day with Y,
and may i quote this, it's hilarious....

Y says: "i think i'm pregnant...lol"

like OMG!
big joke! big joke!
BABE LISTEN to me i said "hey white girl (i actually meant something else)" haha!
seriously! get your ass in school like NOWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!

"that's all folks"

and this is just the beginning....( to be continued)
(STRESS LEVEL RISING)

11.25pm.Life is like a movie!

2008-11-17T08:57:00.000-08:00

life is like a movie:

sometimes crying solves everything.

it just makes you feel better.
you just wanna unwind.

stop.think!
pause the tape and rewind.

i feels much better. on. pause.everything just slows down.
i am a happy child.but no one knows the hurt is inside.
it's ok! cause i don't like to brag.

the stress is basically piling up.everything is a mess.

SHIT! why am i even crying! i have school tomorrow.
my freaking eyes will be swollen!!!!!!!
CHEE BYE!

let's press the "play" button again

"Germz, i'm no mad at you. I just damn fed up. you know, i mean it when i say you're the only one keeping me sane. and with all the drama and **** of everyone else, i'm grateful i have you. you have no idea how grateful. To hear you ALWAYS say stuff like how i secretly hate you,think you're ugly etc. It hurts germz. I know you're kidding but sometimes i wonder why you must even say it, And i find it so ironic, Yes i'm affected that you said i've changed. It was the one thing i was trying to avoid. And you do exactly the same things i'm accused of doing since "i've changed". That's what i don't get. I'm sorry about just now. i'm such a sucker i miss you already. and yes, i'm okay. haven't lost it quite yet. the countdown continues...haha.love you 4eva."

so this movie kinda sucks cause i'm sitting here on my bed crying my eyes out cause of two things stress and that.
and yet the fairy tale story of a handsome prince is not there to comfort you. and you know that the only person that would understand how you're feeling is the one person that's in the same position as you.
talk about how much guys can come in handy.
but it's ok!

so i sit and think.think real hard.and btw, danny and mir i'm not multi-tasking since i am not capable of that. i am seriously thinking! thinking of how i should phrase a message that i would send to a bestfriend.

you decide to pause the movie.switch to cable.commercial comes on:

Dear friend, or should i say EFF BFF. * i really do mean it when i say ELITE FRIEND FOREVER.BEST FRIENDS FOR LIFE*

i entered poly thinking life would be easy.
(ok here's the part when i tell you the truth it's not easy!)
think about how much you have to keep up with all the freaking smart asses! i just can't take it.i worked my ass off to get here.it was my dream course.but yet the reality of it still seems like a dream.
i promise i will try my best.but somehow my best just doesn't seem to be good enough.but this semester i will try! i have been trying but it's not working.but i will still try.
why can't everyone just be happy?

i am sorry if i hurt thou.
sorry for all the tension.
our first argument.

and if you should know i am also a sucker at this.
i would have called or messaged.but with the lack of sleep i have been getting. i fell asleep on my bed.
oh btw, if i didn't receive your message i would have continued snoozing my life away.Thanks! Thank you for the reality check! Thank you for the wake up call in life! like seriously! i wouldn't know what to do without you MIR!

slap me! whenever i seriously need to shut up and need like reality check!
and i suppose i have changed a bit.like here and there? i dunno help me out? is it my character changing? I hope i am still the same germzy wormsy you fell inlove with as a friend.you the EFF BFF of life la! seriously la! slap me!

The SEVEN THINGS I HATE ABOUT YOU (btw, i don't really hate these things but i just sounds good saying that line.haha)
-why on earth you like drinking Distilled water so much? Mineral water baby!
-you and your minahness.melayu melayu all.TERROR La!
-how tall you are. make me look like some shorty. (ya la ya la! i know i am short)
-how daring you are with dressing up! *hint hint;leopard leggings and boots baby* YOU GO GIRL!
-how we can dance and sing merrily like there's no one else in the world besides us.
-how much you love to eat ayam penyet and nasi bryani and chicken rice from my uncle's shop
- and most of all :HOW YOU ARE SUCH A GOOD FRIEND TO ME!!!!!!!:):):)

you're so MIR la! ILOVEYOU.IHEARTYOUMANYMANY.AKUCINTAPADAMU.
(is that even correct?)

Back to the movie:

so basically i have a lot of things on my mind.but some things are left unspoken.because it would let the movie run smoothly.

OMG! CB! i looked at myself in the mirror and my eyes a freaking swollen! CB! CB!
how the fuck am i going to school tomorrow? How do you cure the effect our eyes get after you cry your ass of? OMG! i swear it's dam bad. dam fucking unglam!

wait! my eyes have never swelled up like this before! what if it's like an allergic reaction to THE MILLION MOSQUITO BITES I HAD THIS MORNING DURING SOFTBALL???!!!!!!!!" what if i am going to die!? of like dengue fever? or like some weird exotic allergic reaction???

This is freaking karma like Mir said.ok i have done some bad things lately.well, they're aren't exactly bad bad.after all i am a good girl aren't i? ok! so you know what i am talking about right mir? What if God is punishing me for this? What if the only reason we had this mini tiny little conflict is because he wanted to test our friendship?!? Omg! this is freaking me out? what if i really like wake up tomorrow and find out i am burning with fever? like dengue fever kind cause of the stupid mosquitosssssssssss? how how?

i am so bringing Tiger Brand Mosquito Repellent Spray next week for softball.

so the movie continues...put it on pause,rewind or replay?

It's the same old movie.

Life's basically messed up!

2008-11-14T01:35:00.000-08:00

school's such a bore this semester.
i expected more energy from myself.but it seems i have other stuff on my mind just imagine this scene:

boy likes girl.
girl likes boy.

stopped.think.felt.
do they really?

everything seems confusing.i wanted to go for it.GOAL! SCORE! be focused.it just seems
impossible now!

I HAVE TO TRY!
try my best!
BE FOCUSED!
"Let the chips fall where they may"

Boys are just such a distraction.they come.they go.they disappoint.they make me happy.make me smile:) make me cry.make me hyper.make me laugh.they just do everything.

so let's fast forward:
there's a couple at hand...
J is definitely first.
M is second.
K is third.
S is fourth.
.....and a couple of random others....
only the EFFs know who!

J i really want! feels like i'm on a cloud.J makes me smile.i am myself when around J.but then again i am always myself!
Update:street soccer tournament,SCORE! GOAL! happiness! FINALS! WON! MAN OF THE MATCH!:):):) Was there to give support.caught red handed in action.Finally i got to see with my own eyes.after countless reminders on how good J's skills on the field was.i was Impressed:)

Everything for M is gone!
just there for a couple of days.just disappeared!

K will always be in my heart.forever and ever.love!
we talked.we talked talked last night. *winks winks* "I'll cab down to your house right now.hold you in my arms.and sleep soundly.knowing that you're next to me.*censored for the next hour*.before getting of the phone, a promise was made;
"coffin scene:romantic,sexy,touching." (makes me tingle everytime that scene was mention during the conversation) "tonight,tomorrow? Christmas season? New Years? Birthday? please make it special for me! *sings "It's going to be a Night to remember!"* i love you my bitch.

S! Hmmmm, what about S? nothing has really happened."take my hand take a breath....let the music......" :) the feeling was oooooh oooh so right!:)

A is now in the picture.i feel the touch of A's hand and my hand.put together.i felt it.that sparkle you get.

So which one? J,M,K,S,A??????

i am loved.i love.i have been loved.i will love.
take LOVE under control.
yesterday.today.tomorrow.

Guess who's back?

2008-11-12T00:38:00.001-08:00

ok! so basically i haven't uploaded post in like FOREVER! shoot me!
been blogginh in my head about life's ups and down....TBC

New school.New friends.New life:)

2008-06-15T07:11:00.000-07:00

"me and danny.if i'm not wrong we were high!"

"the girls in T110.well,not all are here"

"The Orphanage.with danny.extra la he"

"the Wing.the Mel.the Germz"

"5 girls & 3 guys.BRAdars"

I'm sitting here all alone in my room not thinking of what to write for my next entry. well, actually i've plenty to write but of course i don't want my life to be made public. Don't know which konuk or kotek will read my blog and publicise it.so better not. anyways, i will write stuff. but not everything though. somethings are meant to be kept confidential.

so here are some pictures of my new awesome friends i made since i entered poly. i love poly life. it's awesome. but tiring sometimes. not the sort of tiredness from secondary school. it's just different!

i suppose my classmates are OKAY! most of them are. then i have my group of friends from semester ONE.(xuan.jill.lydia.valerie.marcus.kin.zach) some of the cool fun whacky people i first met in school. the only sad thing is i only get to see them once or twice a week due to our different timetable. wished we could hang out more. but of course we have our random meetings and outings to dessert cafes. to try the "DAM SHIOK!" desserts.haha. thats xuan's mission in life. scouting for Dam Shiok food!LOL:) she mentioned the other day that she wanted to be a food journalist. future like Fiona Xie? potential i guess.

my coolie friends and goodie people to hang out with in class. Marissa,Lavinna,Wing,Dannny...who else ah? whoever i can click with. they're awesome!:)

But i still miss the KC days being around the girls. it's always fun just to have our lil girl talk.hah more like BITCHING sessions.as Dashnee puts it!

life isn't the same without them! i miss them like crazy. my bitches in class,Sec503 (Dashnee.Mary.Tasha Rashid.Tashah Shahrom.Yun Xuan.Gladys.Tiara.Jonita.Marika.Natasha)

2 week break from poly life is rather relaxing! and yes! the random meet ups! we've been trying our best to catch up on the chit chats and bitching. but it always seems that not everyone's there when we want them to be:( But at least i get to see them. that's the good thing. my only wish is that for all of us to keep in contact and that we won't fade away from the friendship because we hardly get to see each other cause we're all in different schools.

Old friends.New friends.FRIENDS FOREVER!:)

last saturday night (31/05/08) after Homeclub

2008-06-06T03:17:00.000-07:00

"CHOO in the WING's"

ok! everyone laugh out now!!!!!hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah:):):)

LOL. ok! so last saturday. last minute CHOO JIAHAN calls me to ask to go to Homeclub for some gig. called danny and wing to come along as well. after watching axecalibur perform since they were the last band and we came late. the four of us(myself,danny,wing and marcus) and arjun who we met there decided to go clubbing. small world cause wing knows arjun too. so anyways, we went club hopping cause we got bounced. all because of marcus cause he didn't have an ID. well, can't blame him cause it was all last minute plans.

after trying attica,arena..etc.. i decided to try my luck by calling reema to see if she was in boat quay! and yes! i was in luck. seems there was a new club,BOMBAY something,can't really remember since i got fucking high and started doing funny things. we all went there.hell lot of young ANG MOH punks.but who cares.they were fucking HOT! we opened a bottle of vodka.finished it within 15 minutes.and that was it! took an hour of hardcore grinding and i was super tipsy!LOL. you guys must be wondering why i put that picture of marcus up? well, he had to fit his ass into wing's jeans cause he came in shorts and most of the clubs didn't allow him in.but it was hilarious seeing him in the jeans considering he couldn't walk in them and his ball were practically squashed. it was a night to remember. that's if i could actually remember anything.haha:)

2008-06-05T03:22:00.000-07:00

"the 3 brothers and me"

the cousin is angry. his picture is not in. when he see this picture he will feel that i love him.LOL. tried my best to compose some stupid poem! but oh well, at least i tried.i promise you DJ that i'll post more pictures of you when we get down to taking more:):):) but i still love you. haha. i miss hanging out with you. the old times. going to CHEVY's and your place. i miss those times! this is what happens when we both start school. but we need to promise each other that we'll meet up often:):):) kisses

written on the 20th of march 2008

2008-06-05T02:32:00.000-07:00

"the germaine and the kurt"

"the supposed bestfriends"

well,actually i wanted to start a blog in the beginning of the year but i never got down to doing so. only until yesterday when marissa my BFF in class told me that she too started a new blog. so i was like hEY! i think i better get down to doing mine too. So this entry was something i wrote when i first got my mac book and as u can see it was dated 20/03/08.

HOW DO YOU DEFINE A FRIEND? IS IT THE WAY YOU TWO CAN TALK, LAUGH AND CRY TOGETHER OR THE WAY YOUR EYES SPARLKE WHEN THEY SEE EACH OTHER? OR IS IT THE FEELING OF COMFORT YOU FEEL WHEN YOU’RE ARONUD THEM? SOME SAY IT’S THE SIMPLE SMILE AND HUG YOU GET AT ONCE WHEN YOU MEET THEM! WELL, TO ME IT’S DIFFERENT.ALL THEY HAVE TO DO IS MAKE ME FEEL LIKE MYSELF.THAT I DON’T HAVE TO TRY OR PRETEND WHEN I’M AROUND.THEY’VE GOT TO UNDERSTAND ME AND MY WAYS.THEY HAVE TO MAKE ME SMILE AND FEEL THAT THER’RE NO TOMORROW.

OH WELL, SPEAK OF THE SUN THAT SHINES OR THE WIND THAT BLOWS THROUGH YOUR HAIR. DOES THAT ALL REALLY MATTER? OR THE WAY EVERYONE JUST FOLLOWS TRENDS.YOU MAY NOT UNDERSTAND ME.BUT WHO CARES? THE SUN STILL SHINES.THE RAIN COMES DOWN.THE WIND BLOWS.AND HACK WHAT THEY SAY ABOUT THAT SPECIAL SOMEONE! HE OR SHE IS NEVER ARONUD WHEN YOU NEED THEM.THEY JUST COME AND GO.LIKE WAVES THAT COME WITH THE TIDE.THEY SWAY IN AND OUT. AND RELEASE WHEN THEY’RE NOT NEEDED.

STOP TRYING IT JUST DOESN’T FEEL RIGHT.WE ALL KNOW THAT IT DOESN’T EXIST.THE MEANINIG OF LIFE AND WAY THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON.LET’S JUST PUT IT THIS WAY.LIFE HAPPENS.WE GROW IN AND OUT OF THINGS.WE LEARN.WE ACCEPT.WE FORGET.WE FORGIVE.WE REJECT.WE LOVE.WE SHARE.WE FIGHT.WE CRY.

WHATEVER IT IS WE’RE ALL STILL HERE ALWAYS WILLING TO CHANGE AND RUNAWAY FROM THE PAST.BUT IT ALWAYS GETS BACK TO US AND HAUNTS US.WE CAN’T GET AWAY NO MATTER HOW FAR WE RUN.IT JUST KICKS US IN THE BUTT.WE’LL DEAL WITH IT! AND TRUST ME WHEN I SAY THAT LIFE IS WHAT IT IS! :)

SPECTRUM OF MEMORIES THAT FLOW THROUGH THE MIND LIKE IT WAS JUST YESTERDAY.

1.45 in the wee ours of the morning

2008-06-05T01:04:00.000-07:00

"THE KC GANG OF SEC 503. class of 2007"

this is my very first blog. my very first entry. the beginning of a new me. and a new life online. i always told myself that blogging was something i might never do. but hey! look at me now. i'm different. my life has changed. poly life has changed everything. i think i'm what kurt told me "more fun" i think so too. so last night after finishing my radio commercial which is 20% of my grade. i went up to my room. tucked myself in bed and just FELT. THOUGHT. REMEMBERED!

so here it goes...

It's 1.45 in the morning going through all my old messages and reminiscing the beginning of this year,2008 and the past. we have changed. i have changed. you have changed. no one really knows what happened? how it happened? or why it did? LIFE just changes. new acquaintances. new beginnings. the memories just fade away. i don't even know the true feeling. i thought i had gotten over it. over him.(well i have now) over her. over us! but there's no meaning in those things anymore. I HAVE! But now, she's chosen to ignore. ignore me. the confrontations. the friendship. one we built over 8 years. one that has been covered with a mask. just to compliment both of us. random thoughts just flowing through my mind right now. has it been a lie? Where was the trust? Since this is where we are. I'll leave it as it is. we're not going to be seeing each other anymore. different schools. our lives are different. i'm different. she's definitely different. but only thing i know is that whatever happened. we will always be friends. that's how i feel. i will still love and miss the old her. the old times. when we sat next to each other in class. the unforgettable memories. the laughter. the hugs. the FRIENDSHIP!...tear!

here she puts her arms around me. ironic though. just look at the way my posture is. well, anyways this photo was taken last year at EMDD. so i suppose a picture really paints a thousand words.

PS. i guess that this entry is like washing away everything i'm feeling inside. blogging isn't bad after all.